If you were a flavor of ice cream, what would it be?
Okay, so it's not exactly like the Dating Game, but seeing more than one physician is a little like that. It feels a little like being unfaithful. It would be easier if I did not like Dr. P, and I did.
Back when I was looking for a neurologist, any neurologist, I made an appointment with someone at Loma Linda and the appointment is about a week away.
Even though Dr. P and I both discussed the fact that I would see another physician because she was located so far away, I feel a little funny. I called her office and requested that the test results be sent to me, neglecting to mention that I was taking them to another physician – sort of implying that they were just for me, not that I was going to show them to anyone else.
I am not sure why it feels like I am cheating on my physician. I only met with her once. We both knew that it would end, no promises of fidelity were made. She knew I would see someone else – it was just a short-term thing.
I think it is because a relationship is forged when you start seeing a physician – however fleeting. They are important to you – you rely on them. The intake is a little like when you talk about your relationship history on the first date. There is a surprising desire to please. Do they like me? Do they get me? Will they take me seriously? Especially when there is such a weird set of symptoms – will they think that I am sick? Will they dismiss me?
I think that you just want to be important enough for them to pay attention to you.
It feels like dating because you don’t know if they like you as much as you like them. Are they as into you as you are into them. The fact is that it is a kind of one way relationship – there are more of us than there are of them … despite the fact that we pay their salary.